How do you decide to live your life? How do you decide to see life? Meaningless? Joyful? Exciting? Monotonous? Boring? Puzzling? Wonderful?
We all share the same space. The same time. The same people. But the way we view life shapes the way we are and the way that we live our lives day to day. I think I am in a bit of a morphing stage. Or rather, where I am learning to bust out of my caccoon, and fly with my own two wings. Its hard, this process. I guess we are all evolving everyday. We learn new things, see new perspectives. (which I wonder, are they really "new", or rather just all opinions that have been passed around over time, over history, and repeated into the ears of those that havent yet heard? you could argue the "improve upon our ancestors" theory) We change. Find better ways to live. But there are some that stay either complacent, or satisfied with the way that they are. And some are in a good place, theyve found their comfortable way of living that also brings them happiness. Others, give up trying to find THAT thing, that little something that keeps the sparkle in life even as you get old. And they think thats all lifes got to offer them. ehh, I wasnt born into a loving household. What can you expect of me. ahh, I dont have enough money to do that, Ill get nowhere. No one is ever going to understand me, so who cares, Im going to stop caring about trying to be understood, stop caring. Why give up there? Are you satisfied?? Its not about trying trying trying to get yourself into the perfect situation, but its about learning to view your situation in a way that is constructive. Being content with where you are at is not the same as becoming complacent about where you are at. With contentment its not just passively accepting, but its about wanting what you have, about something within you saying "yes!". Complacency is like water through a net. Youll take whatever comes into your life, youll let whatever leave. You have no opinion and no shape, and you allow yourself to become less human and more...just taking up soaking up and something you werent supposed to be.
So live! I hate how we have all the comforts and opportunities but we live like we have nothing. I mean, look at most of the rest of the world. The poor, the homeless, the sick. They really have nothing, but they have so much more they hope for and dream for than I feel like we would ever have. Its hopes and dreams that keep people really striving to do better. And I want to keep dreaming and hoping and wishing even when I get old. Even when Ive seen all the ugly bits of life. I still want to dream and live big.
